Same Old, Same Old

Well, that's me back to the grind, back on the treadmill - whatever you want to call it, I'm back to work.

My computer wouldn't connect to the network for the first hour, no-one really wanted to help, the IT department didn't bother to phone me back...blah, blah, blah...

A strange day.

Its interesting what people say to you when you've been off for a while. Some have kept in touch, some haven't.

People asked, 'What was the chemo like?' 
I showed them the ugly track marks up my arm where the chemo has completely nacked a vein.
They 'ooh-ed.' . If I'd told them what the chemo was like, they'd have switched off after a couple of minutes. A bit like when you're asked, 'how was your holiday?'

They've commented - 'You look great.'
I thanked them. None of them have ever said that to me in 15 years. I dread to think how they must have expected me to look, or maybe I just looked bloody awful before!

They shared their thoughts - 'I bet it's made you take stock of things.'
I smiled. This is one of the things that people say a lot. It irritates me slightly. I was actually very happy with my stock before, and it implies that I used to be an ungrateful, grumpy old sod. I know they don't mean it to sound like that. I opened my mouth to give them my answer, then stopped myself and just said, 'yeh.'
This seemed to keep them happy.

I think I just wanted people to say, 'Fancy a cup of tea?' or 'Can we talk about how to improve the website?' or 'Can you come up with a new marketing plan for next year please?' or even, 'do you need a hand to get your computer sorted?'


But then, if they hadn't asked me those questions and said the things that they said today, I would probably have accused them of being heartless and insensitive. They can't win.


So lets just get back to the grind...